I am consuming and being so passionate into too many things which makes it hard for me to focus on only one thing which strangely make myself feel like I know nothing. I can't do anything. I realize that it is bad but in the other hand I feel the need to be able to know and understand everything. I don't want to be that person who barely know things and don't have the ability to be an expert on one thing. It made me feel worthless.
Actually, I know what I want. I always knew. I knew this thing that I want since I was a kid. But then life happened, which put me in this stage of life. I am living in my own hell and I can't get out from here. I am folded inside my own vulnerability.